Misophonia

I’ve always known that pregnancy gives women super human smelling but, I think I have super human hearing as well. And it sucks. I’ve been so bothered that I did a bit of Googling and, apparently, there’s a word for this: misophonia.

Misophonia basically means having emotional or psychological reactions to certain noises that other people may find unreasonable/irrational. This is definitely what I have. And pregnancy definitely makes it 10 times worse.

The noises that really get under my skin are the sounds people make when they eat, snoring (or any kind of loud breathing), and animals licking themselves. Even the eating noises I make myself gross me out and, I don’t even eat with my mouth open. Hearing these noises makes my skin crawl and, since being pregnant, I can’t even stand to be in the same room when I hear them.

This has been causing a lot of tension in my house. We have a cat and my husband always seems to have some sort of congestion at night.

Rage. Rage. Rage.

What makes this worse is that I’m an extremely light sleeper. Not only do I have to get up to pee at least twice at night but, lately, I find myself ripping open the covers around 2-4 a.m. when I hear a strange noise. I’ve escaped to the guest room on many a night. The guest room helps me get more sleep but, it also makes me sad. I just want to be able to sleep in the same bed as my husband without waking up at all hours of the night. I’m worried that not sleeping in the same bed will lead to marital issues so I’d like to avoid that at all costs.

My husband doesn’t understand any of this which only makes me feel worse. When I have to leave the room because our cat, Noodle, is licking herself, he’ll say “she’s just taking a bath; it’s ok”. I know that she’s just trying to clean herself, and it should be ok, but it isn’t. I’m not mad at her for bathing, but does she have to do it near me? I just feel so out of control.

I’m really hoping that this heightened sensitivity to sounds will go away after our little girl is born but, I don’t even remember what I was like before I got pregnant. Was I always this sensitive? Did I always fly into a rage when my congested husband would breath heavily? I really hope not.

The next anxious thought that always enters my mind is, am I going to be mad at my baby when she makes noises? And then I get really sad. I’m assuming that this heightened sensitivity will go away but, I wish I had known about this before my pregnancy. I may just need to get ear plugs for the rest of the pregnancy. Oh well.

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