First-time Mommy Blog

Hey guys!

Thank you so much for joining me 🙂 I wanted to start this new blog about my experiences being a first-time mom. To be honest, I have no idea what I’m doing but, I’m excited to learn as I go and share my journey along the way.

I am 33 weeks pregnant now and I am definitely feeling it. According to an app on my phone, baby is the size of a pineapple.

A pineapple!

I want this blog to be as open and honest as possible so, I will be sharing the good along with the bad. Some days, like today, are harder than others. Here goes…

As much as I would love to say that it’s all flowers and rainbows, I’ve been having a pretty tough time. Sleeping has become almost impossible, my whole body aches, and I have officially started to swell in my hands and feet. So glamorous.

More than the physical pains, though, I’ve been having a lot of anxiety and feelings of hopelessness. I’ve struggled with anxiety most of my life and the hormones that come with creating a human make it even more difficult to manage. I’m constantly afraid that I’m going to mess up or that I won’t be able to hack it. How the heck do I keep a baby alive? What if I miss something important and my daughter suffers because of it? I keep telling myself that no one is perfect and that I can’t expect to get everything right but, it’s hard to shake these feelings when they have such a death grip on my mind. I’m sure I’m not the only mom who’s felt this way but, knowing that doesn’t seem to help.

Along with feeling like I won’t be good enough is the gut-wrenching feeling of loneliness. I feel alone a lot of the time and it’s hard to see the light some days. Plus, it’s hard to explain this feeling of loneliness to my husband and friends because I don’t even understand it myself. I have an amazing husband who does everything to take care of me and I have amazing friends who are always there to talk but, I still feel like this. My life is about to change drastically and I don’t know if I’m ready for it.

It’s a hard thing to wrap my brain around, but I know it’ll all be worth it, and I can’t wait to see what happens.

So, here’s to change!


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